Sunday Sketches: Do Not Be Afraid
This week at church this wasn’t the message that our pastor was saying. Honestly, I could not tell you one thing with regard to the message other than we are at the end of “Battle Ready” series. This week was interesting because I was very much in my head. My husband can always tell when I am constantly thinking or mulling things over internally because I show all emotions on my face. I know there are others out there who are the same way and for me it has been a blessing and a curse. But I digress.
Do you every start something or have an idea and just know with every fiber of your being that it is exactly what you are supposed to do? If you have then you know the second side to that amazing gut feeling is being completely terrified of failure. I was thinking about how I am beginning something big. That in a few short weeks I will be starting classes in hopes of learning how to create social programs to benefit others. Throughout worship and then the message I just could not settle my thoughts—the negative thoughts such as:
You haven’t been to school in seven years and you were in ART SCHOOL. How are you going to write annotated papers?
You are going to be surrounded by scientific minded people who know what they are talking about and you really think you can measure up to them?
What makes you think the government would value and fund an Art Program specific to military families?”
And these were just a few. Have you ever wondered where our negative thoughts come from? When we were stationed in Oklahoma, our small group of friends from church talked about the fact that sometimes when you get bombarded by negative thoughts or actions, it usually means that you are on the verge of doing something great. That when you are about to succeed at something, the enemy will do everything in its power to stop you. That is when I remembered this song from my many years of Catholic School/Church on Sunday/Choir practice **GET READY FOR OLD SCHOOL CHOIR SESSION**:
Do not be afraid, I am with you. Call it divine intervention or just my mind making connections in the crazy way it seems to work—whatever it was, it was exactly what I needed to hear and a calm washed over me. So for whoever happens to read this, I think you were meant to. Life works like that; I guess you can say that God works like that. I keep having these moments throughout my life that seem to draw me closer to believing with all my heart again. I think remaining open and trusting your journey no matter what it entails will lead to the truth.
Until next week,